Pre-Med Nerd Alert

I'm sick of looking for a job, so I'm just going to chill and wait for responses from the places I applied.

In the meantime, I'm super bored. I've decided to make a trip to the library, but I don't like stepping into a huge building full of thousands of books without a plan or some sort of road map for myself. Therefore I have chosen a theme: what better way to suck up time and life than to pretend to be a med/pre-med student? I will start with microbiology, since I'm going to take that class next semester anyway, then some anatomy (perhaps do some drawing, to mix it up) and finally surgery. They actually have books in the library with step by step procedures accompanied by photos, which is what has me so excited and willing to go through with MCB and anatomy to have a deeper understanding.

You might be wondering what happened to my cello suite goal. Well, it turns out that I'm much more out of practice than I thought, and it's quite impossible to learn it without proper instruction. Playing the cello is quite different than reading and absorbing books...

Just Browsing

I've been looking at other blogs to see what other people are writing about because I don't want to be boring. Is that strange? Well, it's entertaining nonetheless. I've found that a LOT of them are just picture blogs, usually of the bloggers kid(s), as well as a lot written in other languages I can't read, like Spanish and Japanese. I do, however, feel pretty cool when a French blog comes up. I get excited and read everything to see if I understand it all. I have yet to see a Polish blog. One blog had a whole bunch of pics of the elderly lady blogger that had no business being up for the public to view. Another was basically a mom's live journal of...well, a mom's life. Another just has posts of the person's practice architecture drawings. Another person blogs on Bollywood movies. In fact, they all seem to have a purpose or at least an overarching theme. Looking back at my posts, it is more like a live journal I suppose, but all over the place...Like this post. Hmmm.

I like sheep.

Death Note...THE MOVIE!!

Tonight I went a showing of Death Note at the movie theater. It was a bit overpriced, and of course it did not follow the plot line too well, but I thought that it was nice to experience it the way you would with any other movie instead of watching it online. It was dubbed, which had me very worried because I only hear bad things about dubs, but it turns out that they used the same voice actors as in the anime which I am pretty ok with. I don't see what all the fans complain about. You can tell that they did their best with the dub. I would say that they did an excellent job, in fact, what with matching the lip movements the best they could and translating. For example, in comparing the dubbed version and the subbed version, the translated dub "I would love to use your intelligence" is better than "Let us use your brain." The latter makes me think of zombies...

There was a really annoying guy sitting nearby, though. He kept telling his friend what was about to happen and then saying "See!" or "I told you so!" I fail to see the point in going to see a movie if you are going to act like that...it's pretty obvious that the only people that would show up for this movie are the ones that are fans of the manga series, so of course they would know what happens, aside from the scenes where the director decided to use some creative liberty.

So, aside from some script changes (Light having that girlfriend and killing her was soooo wrong) and the annoying guy, I have one more problem with the movie: Light and Misa are not blond. *pouting indignation* It's just not right! Light should at least have light brown hair! uuurgh.

They should be blond like this





































And not dark haired like this


































*sigh* They could have bleached their hair or worn wigs...
At the end of the movie they showed extra content, like you would see on a dvd, and there WAS a blondish wig that Fugiwara (the actor playing Light) tried on. Apparently, it did not fit the director's vision of his character. XP

Diet is "Die" with a "t"

The little Buddha laughs.

Yes, I should diet. I want to look good in my itty bitty navy striped bikini (no polka dots for me, thank you). I know I'm not technically overweight, but I have a little gut! A Buddha belly! Ick. Yes, the little Buddha laughs...

It's too bad that I don't find that extra pudge attractive. There are many versions and tales of Buddha, but in one Thailand tale he is such an attractive man that other men want to take him for a wife. Well, he couldn't have that, so he disguised himself as a fat monk. That'll keep the guys away. It's a good life lesson; moral of the story: to keep any sex away, gain weight. And join the clergy.

Life Untouched

I haven't posted for a few days, so here goes. Something relevant (for me, anyways). Bear with me, I don't know where I'm going with this.

For the past few days I've been online every chance I get. Today I spent the entire day online. I'm not kidding. Since I woke up at 10am until now, I've been online. I ate exactly 2 cookies and a sandwich. I don't seem to have an appetite when I'm zombified by the warm glowing screen in front of me, lulled by the gentle tapping of the keyboard and melodies from my favorite songs. It's too easy to be hypnotized by sleek, comforting computers and the beckoning web pages and emails waiting to be read on the internet.

What's scary is that there are tons of sites that offer a social life. If you were really looking to get social, shouldn't the internet be the last place to look? It's a good resource to keep in touch with friends, but to make new ones? I suppose it is possible...sort of like having a pen pal, but as I play GaiaOnline I find that it can be creepy when people want to have a girlfriend or boyfriend with someone they never met. I find it impossible. It just...doesn't work. And I believe, I hope, that it is usually just a role playing game on such massive multiplayers. But what about other sites that are serious about matching up strangers looking for love? People, do it the natural, real way: in person. Take a tip from the prairie dogs and their social networking.

The internet is the ultimate tool in remaking yourself to be who you want to be in the other person's eyes. Let's admit it: we don't always act like ourselves on a first date. But at least we actually meet the person on a date. We want to present the best of ourselves and leave the little details of our flaws behind, if just to impress someone for a couple of dates, until those flaws eventually catch up. However, with instant messaging, online dating services, and games like GaiaOnline you can take your own image and morph it in any way you want. You could be misleading, or you could be blatantly honest since in either case you can reason that they are just strangers you are talking to, the kind you will probably never see; but either way, should you present this perfect you and expect to have a real relationship? Or bear your soul to a stranger on the monitor and expect the same in return? Besides the truth, what about an emotional or physical connection? The internet dashes it all away. Yes, someone can tell you that they are sad or happy or otherwise, but how can you know and why would you care if you are not there with them reading the expression on their face? And forget about hugs. The internet provides no way for physical contact.

Nothing can replace the human touch. Human touch is an important, integral part of human life. Why is it that there are so many rules against inappropriate touching? Because touch makes such a huge impact on us, which is why we need appropriate touching all the more. Everyone needs a hug once in a while. I mean it.

Of course, I don't mean that all relationships made online are contrived. I just hope that, every once in a while, such people take a step back from the screen, look at their pale tan from it's glow, and wonder when the last time they had real contact with their friends. Every time I do this, a wave of sadness rushes over me, because I miss my friends. At college, I wouldn't spend all my time online. I wouldn't forget to eat. I would have friends to remind me of everything I could be doing. I don't have that luxury at home. All I have is the nagging in the back of my mind, reminding me of what failure this summer promises to be. No job. A calculus class I'll probably fail like the rest of my classes. Little to no contact with friends busy with their productive lives. And now there is a pain in my tummy; I can't decide if it's from lack of food or lack of love, it's just that...sometimes...a *hug* on instant messenger is not enough.

Gaia...?

What on earth is Gaia online? Seriously? Lemme tell you: it has nothing to do with the "gaia" of the gaia hypothesis or Final Fantasy. But it does have pretty clothing that you can buy with gold and therefore I now play it. It turns out that these people have their own real t-shirts that you can buy! AND they have, in the past, booked an entire Ironman screening especially for "Gaians"! I mean, they DO stuff. Wow. They MEET each other IN PERSON. Huh. I dunno, I'm fairly new to this massive online multiplayer thing, but I hope my current addiction now doesn't go that far...I check it more frequently than facebook now, and that is saying something.

The thing with facebook is that I normally use it more during the school year to keep in contact with some friends...kind of weird since you would think I would use it a lot more in the summer when I'm away from a lot of them. I find that less people check their facebook while at home, as well, so it's better to give them a call, which I certainly appreciate since it is much more personal. I like it better that way, I should use the phone more often!

Oh, I guess I'll show you what I do on Gaia, so here are some avies!
This is what I want my avatar to look like (but its impossible because the game won't let me layer the socks and the fishnet stockings and some other stuff...):
And here's Light! Just for fun...















And of course Dante and Vergil.

Money In Da Bank

omg just LOOK at this stuff.

*drools*


Right now I have enough money saved up to buy the special edition of GTA IV and a 360, and goodness that is soooo tempting! But if I make the purchase, I will feel very broke and...well...spent. Plus I think I have plenty of things right now to keep me busy...er...ok not really. I would just feel guilty because I HAVE NO JOB. Thus I feel bummish. Yes that is now a word. Get up to speed.

I just can't stand the thought of going back to Kohl's. The management at the one I worked at sucked and the workers were all lazy...I felt like the only one willing to work for my wages there. I can be quite motivated when it comes to money. Anyhoo, I tried to get a pharmacy job for this summer two months before school ended, and nothing, nada at any of the several nearby Walgreens. I can't work at Osco or CVS because apparently I have to already be in pharm school. Pshhh. Now I'm looking into libraries...anything but clothing retail, especially a place like Kohl's.
YUPYUP!